Letters of Apology

Dear Paul,

There is nothing I can say or do to adequately express my sorrow for what I have done to you and your loved ones. My act was many things some of which were selfish, cruel, hurtful, abhorrent, and detestable just to name a few. I have affected so many people and in no small way I believe that I irreparably changed the world by robbing her of all of your many virtues.

I'm sorry for taking you away from your family, I'm sorry for taking you away from your friends and loved ones. I'm sorry for robbing you of your beautiful life and your right to experience the beautiful milestones that life has to offer. You never had a wife who you can cherish and love and who would cherish and love you back, you never had children who you can watch grow and feel their unconditional love in return. I can continue but I know that you are more aware of all these things than I am.

I do want you to know that I am sorry for all of it and wish I knew what I can do to lessen the pain that I've caused to so many people if just a little bit. I want you to know that whatever positive actions I do, I do for you. I do these things to try to mitigate the world's loss of you. I'm sorry for all the pain and suffering that I have caused your family and loved ones. I'm sure there's nothing worse than losing a child and I'm sorry for causing this pain to your mum and dad. I will continue to do the best that I can to bring positive influence into our world even though I know it will never match what you would have done.

One time a priest had asked a group of us a question, "Who would you most like to speak to in heaven?" Many people spoke of great figures in history or celebrities, etc. When it became my turn to share I responded that if I ever have the merit to achieve heaven I would like to speak to you. I would like to offer this apology face to face and tell you how truly sorry I am for all of the bad that I have caused.

Most Sincerely, Gregory

Dear Gale Family,

This is a letter that is far too late but I realize that no matter how difficult this letter is to write it will be a much harder one to receive. I want to tell you how deeply sorry I am for taking Paul's life. I understand that I not only robbed Paul of his life but I also robbed him from you and permanently damaged the lives for all of you and for all of Paul's friends as well. I am ashamed and sickened by what I have done, it was a selfish and disgusting act. My selfishness, my cruelty, and my carelessness have caused more pain, more anguish, and more indignation than I can ever repair.

I offer this apology to you with the hopes of bringing some degree of closure or peace for you. Even though I know I can not fix what I have done I want you to know that I take responsibility for it and I put blame on no one else other than myself. I only wish I can change places with Paul as his life would have contributed to society greatly as compared to mine. I didn't know Paul but I know that he is a much better man than I could ever be. I know this letter is much too little and too late, but I want you to know how much I deeply regret my actions. I'm truly sorry for what I have done and for all of the suffering that I have caused you.

Most Sincerely, Gregory

This is an open letter of apology to all those that I have hurt or offended.

Through these years I've had time to scrutinize my life and the many negative actions that I've taken for which I deeply regret. If I have done something wrong to you, offended you, or hurt you in any way, either directly or indirectly, I offer my most sincere and heartfelt apology. I want you to know that every relationship that I've had whether familial, friendly, acquainted, professional, or romantic I valued and always had the best of intentions. For those that this letter is written for, you did nothing wrong, it is clear that I have failed.

Apart from the reason that I am incarcerated for which is terrible, offensive, and which I have the deepest sorrow and regret for, there are other egregious things that I have done and recognize that are awful and hurtful. For these things too I am ashamed and sorry.

I offer no excuses for my actions and take full responsibility for the things that I have done. In order to offer some kind of explanation and to answer your question as to "why" I will say that there are things about my life and upbringing that you may not be aware of. I will also tell you that I have sustained deep depression and extreme low self-esteem since early childhood. I have tried my whole life to suppress these things and to a certain extent I continue to do so to this day. These are not excuses but the symptoms of those things which have guided my actions. I know much time has passed but I believe that some wounds are deep and need to be redressed. I have caused you pain and realize that I may never be able to repair what I have done to you. I fully regret what I have done and am truly sorry.

If you desire, I offer to you a direct and personal apology as well as listen to you fully and without interruption to what you want to say. I offer this to you to try to correct any wrongs I have done and will do my best to correct them to your satisfaction.

Most Sincerely, Gregory J. Marcinski